I am, I am the secret

6
Aug

R.I.P

My Uncle Ron <3

Won’t ever be forgotten, and will be missed so much by all.

I hope your happier and in a better place now :/

Love and miss you always <3
31
Jul

tim burtons tragic toys
1192
31
Jul

fuckyeahphotographics:
31
Jul

elizabeth I

watching a documentary on her by david starkey. got his book on her also, may give that another read as i literally have nothing else to do with my time. good preparation for september maybe? :}
26
Jul

right this is my last attempt

at writing in this everyday. i really should.

apart from my life is so boring and dull now

driving test

I PASSED!

only got 4 minors (for observation, signalling etc) it was so nerve-wracking thought. i couldn’t stop shaking and i thought i’d messed up on my left reverse round a corner - making my leg start shaking (and not stop)

but ah well; nice examiner, passed. couldn’t believe it - it felt so good when i’d passed! went home and got my driving instructor a bottle of Bell’s whisky and a card :) also went out for dinner with my mum and stepdad :}

got my driving licence the other day it’s all pretty and pink aha

results day

LOOMING. PANICKING. SCARED. NERVOUS.

that’s all i have to say about that

holiday

just a few bits to get :} sandals, shorts, pumps, dresses etc. so. excited. :D
11
Jul

i give up with tumblr

i never write on it anymore.. driving test t-minus 3 days

not looking forward to it
11
Jul

"
We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn’t much
But it’s enough to make me wonder what’s in store for us
It’s lust, it’s torturous, you must be a sorceress
Cuz you just, did the impossible, gained my trust
Don’t play games it’ll be dangerous if you fuck me over
Cuz if I get burnt, I’ma show ya what it’s like to hurt
Cuz I’ve been treated like dirt befo’ ya
And love is evil, spell it backwards, I’ll show ya
Nobody knows me, I’m cold, walk down this road all alone
It’s noone’s fault but my own, it’s the path I’ve chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion what’soever, so
Don’t ask me why I have no love for these muh’fuckin’ hoes
Blood-suckin’ succubuses, what the fuck is up with this
I’ve tried in this department, but, I ain’t had no luck with this
It sucks but it’s exactly what I thought it would be like tryin’ to start over
I’ve got a hole in my heart for some kind of emotional roller-coaster
Somethin’ I won’t go on, so you toy with my emotions, ho, it’s over
It’s like an explosion every time I hold ya, I wasn’t jokin’ when I told ya
You take my breath away, you’re a supernova
And I’m a

(Chorus)

I’m a space-bound rocketship and your heart’s the moon
And I’m aimin’ right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles on a clear night in June
And I’m aimin’ right at you
Right at you
Right at you

(Verse 2)

I’ll do whatever it takes, when I’m witchu, I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain’t, witchu, I have zero strength
There’s no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think’s
Gonna be that one and then once we get ‘em, it’s never the same
You want ‘em when they don’t want you, soon as they do, feelin’s change
It’s not a contest and I ain’t on no conquest for no mate
I wasn’t lookin’ when I stumbled onto you, musta been fate
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take, let’s cut to the chase
‘Fore the door shuts in your face, promise me if I cave in and break
And leave myself open that I won’t be makin’ a mistake
Cuz I’m a

(Chorus)

I’m a space-bound rocketship and your heart’s the moon
And I’m aimin’ right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles on a clear night in June
And I’m aimin’ right at you
Right at you
Right at you

(Verse 3)

So after a year and 6 months, it’s no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once
I’ll pour my heart out to you, let down my guard, swear to God
I’ll blow my brains in your lap, lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I’m pleadin’, I’m tryin’ to stop you from leavin’
You won’t even listen, so fuck it, I’m tryin’ to stop you from breathin’
I put both hands on your throat, I sit on top of you, squeezin’
Til’ I snap your neck like a Popsicle stick, ain’t a possible reason
I can think of to let you walk up out this house and let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks, then I let you go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple, I told you this

And I woulda did anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it’s over now, it’s too late to save our
Love
Just promise me you’ll think of me
Every time you look up in the sky and see a star
Cuz I’m a

(Chorus)

I’m a space-bound rocketship and your heart’s the moon
And I’m aimin’ right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles and a clear night in June
And I’m so lost without you
Without you
Without you
"

- spacebound - eminem
4
Jul

9 lasts

1. Cigarette: never, cause imma good girl
2. Beverage: brew
3. Kiss: this morning :}
4. Hug: this morning
5. Movie seen: ermm. watched clash of the titans last night
6. CD played: don’t do cd’s
7. Song listened to: ermm was listening to eminem earlier

8 have you evers

1. Dated one of your best friends: yes :)
2. Skinny dipped: no
3. Kissed somebody and regretted it: nooope
4. Fallen in love: yesyesyesss
5. Lost someone you loved: erm. yes.
6. Been depressed: yeah
7. Been drunk and threw up: nope
8. Kissed in a vehicle: yeaaah

7 states/countries you’ve been to

1. majorca
2. france
3. bulgaria (in august!!)
4. wales
5.
6.
7.

6 things you’ve done today

1. came home from adams :}
2. went to worrkk
3. watched the carnival whilst at work
4. came home + had takeaway for tea
5. had a shower
6. came on here, watched tv

5 favourite things in no order

1. my boyfriend
2. the best friends
3. family
4. iPoddd
5. hair dye

4 people you last talked to

1. stepdad
2. mum
3. sister and brother
4. boyfriend

3 wishes

1. driving test to be over and passed
2. results day to be over and two A’s achieved
3. lovely summer

2 things you want to be when you grow up

1. teacher maabbee
2. i really have no other choice

1 thing you regret

1. acting immature in times when i shouldn’t, resulting in lost friends
4
Jul

:}

a week on wednesday will be my dreaded driving testt at 10:44 AM. i’m seriously not looking forward to it, just incase i fail as i can’t afford another test, ATALL. literally no money for it, which puts more pressure on me to pass.. on a better note if i do pass, it’s an extra 20 quid a week that i can save from not having driving lessons. all in all, i need to pass or im screwed. i think i’ll be okay. i’m fine with turn in the road and bay park. reverse around a corner, pretty muchh. parallel parking - ugh

i need to have a read about box junctions, practice emergency stop, show me tell me questions etc etc

ARGHH
4
Jul

30 day music meme;

11. a song from your favourite band

perhaps i should honour the title of my blog

thorn within - metallica

nikki, 18
august will be life changing. i'm hopefully moving to the university of leeds in september to do a BA in history, providing i get the grades! i have a lovely boyfriend, who's been mine for 4 years now; i have two amazing best friends who i wouldn't change for the world, and a brilliant family. i have no idea what this blog is for.. maybe my rants. and pretty pictures reblogged from others. and song lyrics. and 30 day challenges. and my progress in life. oh, and to post pictures of metallica, whom i love :} along with my purpley iPod, schwarzkopf hair dye, bright colours, rainy days, dressing gowns, my wine gums mug, hot tea, the growing amount of DVD's and books i have, my sennheiser earphones, thin lines and neat drawings, illustration, history, lynx shower gel, tim burtons tragic toys/anything associated with tim burton, eminem (rekindled love), free texts, lazy days when it's raining and there's nothing to do, and also friends of course

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